Grr. Kiti is displeased.

Okay, actually, Kiti is frustrated. Muchly. I got into a fight with one of the pages of CAGE. The first two panels look fine, the next two... bleaugh. I eventually gave up and went on to the next page, which came out good, so it's not artist's block. It's just that the page hates me. Grr.

Tried drawing just random people, and they came out crap. More grr. I got one seriously kick-ass picture of an elf guy done while visiting relatives (I spent the whole trip working on that one picture, which means I spent about four hours on it. Damn. He better look good, if I spent that long on him), but everything I've done since him has just been kind of blah.

Actually, strike that. I did do one other good picture since him, of Cloud, for Auden's fic, Stray. That is one SERIOUSLY kick-ass fic. Unfortunately, I'm currently at my father's house, away from my precious scanner. DAMNIT! His computer doesn't even have SPEAKERS, for crying out loud... DAMNIT! I'm going nuts here...

On the plus side, I got some video capture software and stuff for christmas, which means I can stop relying on Kazaa for source clips and the cheapo newbie Windows Movie Maker crap for the editing. Score!

But back to frustration. I can't even get the pictures I've already scanned online, because 1. they're on Beast, and I'm here using Dad's crappy comp, and 2. even if I was on Beast, Elfwood's Extranet is down. No uploading. DAMNIT!

And serious writer's block going on, mainly because I need music to write. Grr. I'm talking Paradise Lost, Starfall kind of stuff here, not CAGE. That's drawing, I can just turn the TV on for some background noise and I'm good. For PL, I need mood music. Like Bullets. I am addicted to this Creed album and it's scaring my relatives. Anyway, Dad's crappy comp doesn't have speakers. Solution: use the stereo. Problem: my little sister, also staying with Dad this week, is sleeping in the computer room. She, for some crazy reason, actually likes to sleep at night. Go figure. So, no stereo. Solution: use headphones. Problem: can't, I'm deaf in one ear, and 1. don't want to risk damaging the other one and 2. the crappy headphones only play in one side, and keep switching sides. Distracting, much?

Dad's laptop DOES have a speaker. Unfortunately, my other little sister, who does stay up all night, has called dibs on that computer for her chat, no luck prying her off it. Damn. Anyway, the keyboard on the laptop sticks. I hate that.

On the plus side, I finally got my ff.net page caught up. Yay, me.

Next frustrating thing? FINAL FANTASY TEN. It is out. I pre-ordered it. IT IS NOT HERE. I could have just bought it at Best Buy today and saved myself the time. DAMNIT! Stupid postal service...

Unless it did come, and she just didn't call to tell me... >.< SHE WILL PAY.

Except it probably just didn't come. Grr. I did pick up the strategy guide, though, even though I refuse to look at anything other than the pictures on the character pages and the big full-page pictures flipping through. Rikku rocks, man. I want to cosplay as her, but whoa. Complicated much? I am in total admiration of anyone who can pull off any of those costumes. And I am addicted to Blitzball. I love it, I worship it, I want to play it but can't because my FFX still isn't frackin' here! Grr.

I could have rented it at Blockbuster, too, but you know what? This hicksville Blockbuster doesn't include the manuals. The guy working there said they were afraid they'd get stolen. WTF? So they'd rather just stick them in the back room and leave them to rot? Yeah, great logic there, buddy... What, I could have just rented it and played it without the manual? Uh-uh. No way. This is Final Fantasy, man. This is not just some thing. This is THE thing. A holy thing. Do not mess with my Final Fantasy. I want to get the manual and peer through it and drool over the character pages and the graphics and the weapons and the... hoo... Anyway, like I was saying. When I play Final Fantasy, I want the whole deal. Manual and all. Do not screw with me when Final Fantasy's involved.

So, I'm just gonna wait until my copy, with the manual, arrives. ...sigh...

On the plus side, I got the Zell Triple Triad card for x-mas. *glomps lil sis* This girl is a GODDESS. Everything she got me was imported from Japan. OH yeah! ^_^V Well, except for that kawaii chibi Ryoko, which is so kawaii I can't believe it was actually sold in America. The mind boggles.

Speaking of x-mas, me and goddess-lil-sis got our lil-lil-sis a joint present--Grandia 2 artbook and doujinshi--which, according to lil-lil-sis, was the best thing she got, beating out santa claus. Oh yeah, we kicked Santa's butt. We rule. ^_^V We are the otaku generation. Fear us.

While I'm blogging, here's the rundown on my x-mas stuff:

CDs. And lots of 'em. (FF1-6, FF7-9, FF the movie, Mononoke Hime, Gravitation (this from goddess-lil-sis. YOU RULE!), Train, and some funky wolf howls set to new age music.)
DVD. Just one. Ranma 1/2, that one with Ranma-chan and Ryouga on the cover. Because there's no point in watching Ranma unless Ryouga's on screen.
Books. Lots. Every Mercedes Lackey book I don't own yet (all 6 of 'em), plus a collection of the Zits comics.
Miscellaneous wacky stuff. Chopsticks from dad, and a fountain 'cause my old one kept splashing everywhere. A message board with a scary yet kawaii chibi Yuusuke on the side. Socks. Art supplies--colored pencils, markers, paint. And I don't color. Go figure. Maybe they want me to learn? It's still cool. Anyway. A Yuusuke snapkit. A figure of a wolf that has to be held underwater to get the price tag off. A chinese coin pouch. A jacket. And of course, the all-important Zell Triple Triad Card. You RULE, goddess-lil-sis!
Plus two more gifts that were imported and haven't arrived yet.
...oh, and let's not forget those distant relatives who are confused by me and so go with the most wonderful christmas gift of all: Cash. Oh, yeah. A hundred dollars in checks, and another hundred in gift cards (didn't those used to be certificates? Whatever) to stores I actually like: Suncoast and B. Dalton's. I am no longer broke. For a few days, at least.

Poor goddess-lil-sis. Our equally-confused-by-her relatives tried the same approach, but she didn't get so lucky on the gift cards. Her gift card was for... dun dun dun... The Gap. Yes, the gateway to hell itself. No, wait, I'm sorry, the gateway to hell is the xbox. (Don't buy American-made systems, children. Just... don't. Remember, these are the same people who brought us country music and the atomic bomb.) Okay, gateway to heck, then. *pats goddess-lil-sis on back* I feel your pain...

Oh, and one last thing. Addition to the To Do list:
Creed-Angel Sanctuary-everyone to Setsuna

BWAHAHAHAHA!!! I'd forgotten how great 80's music videos are... Dancing in the Street is just cracking me up here... ^_^ Leopard skin outfits and Mick Jagger giving David Bowie looks worthy of the GAYLE, hoo! ^_^V

I've had a truly odd day... It went bloodshed-xmas-bloodshed-xmas-smut-insanity. Insanity being the 80s videos, mostly. And the bloodshed was just Devil May Cry and Jurassic Park III, so please don't call the cops on me. Anyway, between the random craziness, the house got decorated for Christmas. And so did my computer. Wai wai! YWAM wallpaper! HOO! ^_^

Boromir If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Boromir, Man of Gondor, proud heir to the Steward Denethor II, and elder brother of Faramir. In the movie, I am played by Sean Bean. Who would you be? Zovakware Lord of the Rings Test with Perseus Web Survey Software

If I just rejected that ring, I could have been Aragorn... DANGIT! Oh well, Boromir rocks, too. Is it just me or does Legolas look like an utter wimp? I was soooooooo disappointed with that, I love him in the books. I haven't seen it yet, though... and according to Yaya Han, he's a badass. He doesn't look like a badass... But Yaya Han completely rules, so she has to be right. ~_^

Eating, that song from Gravitation, so belongs in a video game. Or a soundtrack for sprite webcomics.

Hi there! Look, I'm a sprite!

Okay, so it's Katt from BoF with dyed hair and a new wardrobe, but close enough. We share a name, anyway. I was bored today, in case you couldn't tell, and I've been reading way too many sprite comics lately. Speaking of which, have you noticed that the 'comics I read' links are updated more often than anything else on this blog? I really am addicted to these things...

Oh, and have you seen this? I can't decide whether it's whacked out or an interesting idea. I might be tempted to test it out, if I wasn't so looking forward to winding up a crazy old lady who blows all her cash going skydiving in Australia or Brazil and scares the crap out of all her relatives. Heh.

On the not-quite-so-boring side of things, I got to pick out anime for the updated anime section at the local Video Update today. Score! ^_^V I'm the only anime-obsessed person that the manager knows, so she asked me to help. Cool.

My cable modem broke. Just fixed it today. Ack, internet withdrawal is painful! Why is it that computers are always breaking, and we yell and curse at them until we finally get them running again, and they've got to be the most annoying things in the world, but we all keep using them anyway? It's like this weird symbiotic love/hate relationship. Anyway, I'm back, and I've got the first few pages of CAGE drawn up. Yay, me.

BTW, I am continually amazed by the number of people who actually read this page. What are you doing here? It's not like I'm interesting or anything. Go read something by someone interesting. *points to the links over on the side*

I just had the most mind-blowing dream ever.
Oh, gods, I am so grateful I decided to stay home from school, because otherwise I wouldn't have all this in my head. (Yeah, I skipped. I woke up when it was time to go to school, I went back to sleep, and then I had This Dream).
Full-blown movie preview in my head, except not from any movie, or manga, or one of my silly little comics for that matter. All these amazing characters in motion and talking to each other and with this apocolyptic music in the background like something you'd hear on an X music video, there was this woman singing like she belongs in some sort of opera or something, kind of reminds me of this, with O Fortuna mixed in, only not that singer and a song I'd never heard before, it was great, I'd write it down if I knew all the chords, and parts where she wasn't singing and the focus was on this beat--drums?--and you could hear peopel talking sometimes, and there's this scene at a train station or a subway or something and there's this full-out battle going on and the main couple are off sitting on a bench with the older guy cradling the younger guy's head in his lap, younger guy's unconcious (yes, this is shounen-ai), and there's people on all the benches where you wait for your train, just normal people, watching this battle going on between two guys, one of them's making me think of X, like Kamui only not, just a Kamui-like expression, and they're standing at opposite ends of an aisle between the two rows of benches and the floor is this kind of tan and the benches are green I think and this kind of angel goes flying from Kamui-type guy to other guy, attacking, kind of like when Alexiel attacked Rosiel in the third part of the AS OAV, that sort of spiritual glowing type thing, and there's this beautiful girl like Sara from AS or Kotori from X or, you know, any of those type of pretty girls with long hair, and she's in a coma, and there's this other guy, I think he's like a high school punk or something, and he's in loe with the older guy of the main couple, but he won't admit it to anyone except for this one person who also won't tell because he thinks he'd kind of corrupt the older guy, who isn't all that perfect, but this guy thinks of himself as scum--which he's not! *huggles poor guy*--so he just stays in the background mostly and does everything he can to protect the main couple, both the younger and the older guy, at one point he saves the younger guy's life, even though he knows that he could let him die and the older guy would be free and he could--but he wouldn't. I love this guy! And he's got this long black trenchcoat and a hoop earring in one ear and he has shorter hair than the way I drew it, I only drew it that way because it smudged and wouldn't go away, I'll have to fix that later. And there's this scene where he's in this hallway with brown stone--brick?--walls talking about all this stuff (him being in love with Older Guy, I really need to think up names for them), I think he's talking to Priest guy, who may or may not be related to him. I'm not really sure how Priest is involved, but he was in the dream too, he was with the Girl, and I think he gives shelter to the Main Couple when they're in trouble somehow, or maybe just one of them.

Anyway, it was flat-out amazing.

So I'm turning it into a manga. It's weird, just two days ago I finally decided to do a webcomic and was starting drawing up the characters (it was going to be just this thing with Archer when he's a little older and he and Jinko go off to college or something with all these weird characters, mostly comedy, like most of the webcomics you see), and I was a little annoyed at myself because the basic 'boys-at-college' thing is so repetitive, but I was going to do it anyway, but this--woah. It has to be written. It should be an anime, but I couldn't exactly do that on my own, so I'm writing it.

Of course, I don't know the whole plot. I've just got these scenes in my head from the preview, I don't know what happened in between. But I'm writing it out and keeping the stuff that feels right. It's this whole angel thing, only not in heaven, right here on earth. There's these creatures that humans called angels and demons, but it's really the same race. I don't know if they're really originally from heaven or not, that's not the issue here. Apparently, there are only a few full-blooded ones left, and one of them was killed by humans. This made a non-full-blooded angel guy, who either knew the full-blooded angel somehow or saw the killing or was involved somehow, decide that humans don't deserve to live. (There's a little more to it than that, but that's what made him really make that decision). So he's trying to destroy humanity. Older Guy is involved in this somehow--fighting against him? Enemy (that's the guy I was talking about just before, who's trying to destroy humanity, look, they didn't mention any names in the preview-in-my-dream, give me a break, okay?) is trying to 'save' all the semi-angel-blooded people, or at least offering them a chance to be saved, which I think is how Older Guy knew about all this--or maybe not, that feels a little wrong--partially that, partially something else? That feels right. The semi-blooded people can use, I guess you'd call it spiritual powers, that's the angel thing that was in the fight at the subway station, either spiritual energy or the Kamui-type-guy's true spiritual form. And even without using the angel-type-form they're stronger than most people.

But at the beginning, Younger Guy doesn't know about any of this. He's partially angel-blooded, BTW. I'm pretty sure all the main characters are, except Priest and Tough Guy. Anyway, Younger Guy is with Girl. Girl is his girlfriend. And then Older Guy shows up, and there's just this attraction between them, like a pull. Older Guy doesn't seem to feel it (but I think he does. ^.^), but it's driving Younger Guy nuts. I'm kind of thinking a Gravitation-like storyline here. Anyway, he never actually breaks up with Girl, although she's suspecting something's going on, and meanwhile the Angel storyline starts to come into play. Eventually there's this fight/disaster/something where all three of them are together, and Younger Guy saves Older Guy, and Girl gets hurt.

Eventually, Girl's in a coma. Did this put her in a coma, or did she just realize that Younger Guy had drifted that far away?
If it did put her in a coma, then she was concious for long enough to make that realization first.

Priest loves Girl. But he's too (shy?) to tell her. He won't tell her, anyway. But later, there's another disaster, and he saves her. And she doesn't see who it was at first, and says Younger Guy's name, thinking it's him. Poor Priest... He does a lot to protect her. He's really nice.

Girl acts tougher than you'd think she would, from the way I draw her face. But really, it's just an act. She's sweet and innocent, even though she doesn't want people to think so. She made me think of that picture I drew ages ago and still haven't scanned, with the angel with a demon half, except the demon half of the face is really a mask. I need to scan that.

There wasn't any narrator on the preview, BTW. Even though you could hear the characters talking. It was just the characters and the music.

Priest watches over Girl in her coma at some point.

And there's someone else involved, too, because the Kamui-type guy at the station wasn't any of the main guys I've drawn so far, and there was someone up on a second floor (balcony, railing) looking down at the fight at the station. So there's more people. Woah.

I immediately went and drew out the main characters--Younger Guy, Girl, Older Guy, Tough Guy and Priest--and then I drew a title page for the first part. I'm thinking of CAGE for a title. Not sure why.

Anyway... woah.

And you know what? Xenia had a preview dream too. Except hers wasn't like mine, it was YCCK doing all the evil things he's done so far in her comic/chat with evil apocolyptic male-singer music and a narrator.

Now I need to get a site at Keenspace.

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It snowed. It's winter. Fuck.

I really hate this season.

Oh, and Dante's hard to draw. And blue-skinned demons just don't look the same in B&W.

And I HATE ADOBE PHOTOSHOP!!!! Could someone explain to me how the fuck these stupid gradient things work? This thing is waaaaaaay more trouble than it's worth...

I am seriously a webcomic-slut. I've been reading waaaaaaaaay too much of this crap. Some of it isn't even funny. WTF is up with me? And I have to write that stupid 15-page, 80%-of-my-final-grade essay today, too. Haven't even started it yet. Craaaaaaaaaap....

And you know what? It snowed today. It's Sunday. WTF is the point of snow on a Sunday?! Couldn't it have waited for one freakin' day? Geez...

On the bright side, I tried a pomegranate for the first time yesterday. Yum.

Ooooo, I want a Bunny-Mech T-shirt! And Mayhem! Hehehe... ^_^ I want G.U.S., too. Trouble is, I actually want G.U.S., not a shirt with G.U.S. on it. ^_^;;

*pops Vegeta into her mouth*

Oh, and guess what? Ragnarok looks spiffy. I haven't played it yet, but it seems to be preferable to being trambled on repeatedly by rabid llamas, so maybe I'll try it out. I'm just kinda looking around the page right now.

*pops Trunks into her mouth*

Well, of course I have to play it. Tom Swan pointed it out, and I read The Jar, so he owns me. ^_^ ...of course, by that definition, a lot of people own me... I'm a webcomic-slut.

*pops Goku into her mouth*

And Jynx the Cat rules. Seriously. Rules. I found this page while I was doing random surfing.... I don't even remember what I was looking for, probably Devil May Cry yaoi, I've had a thing for that lately, even though it doesn't exist since Dante's the only spiffy male character in that game, but he's just so cool he demands to be in a yaoi fic, so I wound up making up that funky blue-skinned demon guy for him as a present, and... what was I talking about? Oh yeah. That's the page that pointed out the glory that is Montrose Academy to me. Shibby.

And you know what? These DBZ gummies are fun. ^_^V

Hmm... I wanted to blog about something last night. But the blogger page wasn't working. And now I can't remember what it was I wanted to blog about.

I hate it when that happens.

Whatever. Here's another stupid test thingy.

I'm The 'Which Online Personality Test Are You?' Test!

Oh irony of ironies! I just can't get enough postmodernism, so of course I'm this same test I've just taken. Ho-ho!

Click here to find out which test you are!

I wonder if there's a Montrose Academy test...

RAIZEN-SAMA



Bow before Him and worship. Bask in His glory. Worship.

You know those wonderful Raizen-sama followers who just collapsed when Yuusuke told them? That was me. Well, me with a little less hair. But still me.

Fell over, wailed for a while.

Got up. Drew Raizen-sama's face markings. Tried to make a bandanna, but couldn't find the right fabric. Damnit. Stole Xenia's Hiei-bandanna instead and tied it so the knot's right. It's the wrong color, but it'll do.

Went back and wailed some more and worked out a little while re-watching That Episode.

Had a fight with Xenia. (She's a Mukuro-follower. Grr.)

Want to kill Mukuro. How dare she speak about Raizen-sama like that?!

;_;

...in mourning...

;_;

*wail*

Raizen-samaaaaaaaa... *wail*

The Makai is in mourning.

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WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! *sob*

To Do:
Creed--FY--Yui
Creed--IWTV--Claudia
Bush--IWTV--Lestat/Louis
Goo Goo Dolls--Smallville--C/Lx
Nickelback--Cowboy Bebop--Spike/Julia/Viscous
Alan Parsons--Various (FY, Escaflowne)--grief, families
Steve McDonald--FY--Nuriko
Linkin Park--DBZ--Mirai Trunks
Linkin Park--DBZ--Trunks and Vegeta
Linkin Park--Utena--School life vs. Duelist life
Splashdown--Utena--Utena, Anthy, Toga, Akio
The Urge--Various (Cowboy Bebop, Outlaw Star, GW, Macross Plus)--flight, coming of age
???(something japanese)--Titan A.E.
Staind--MKR--regret (remake)

Done:
Eden--Sailormoon--Haruka/Michiru
Like Lovers (Holding On)--FF8--Squall/Rinoa
At the Beginning--FF9--(Zidane/Garnet; whole team)
The Lucky Ones--Various--angst-filled romance
Land of Confusion--FF7--world view
Are You Ready?--Inu-Yasha--setting out on a journey
My Way--Various--rebellion, strength, defiance: adolescence's end
Take My Hand--Lunar: EB--Lucia (Hiro/Lucia)
It's Been A While--MKR--regret
Cube--FF7, 8, 9--action, angst, etc. Blatant pairings: Squall/Zell, Sephiroth/Cloud. Pairings that are there if you're looking and understand the lyrics: Kuja/Zidane, Blank/Zidane, Squall/Seifer
Elevation--GW--1x2

KAZAA!

Name games are strangely amusing.
Of course, I'm easily amused.

If I was a James Bond villain, I would be Francisco Scaramanga. I enjoy good food, monopolising the world's energy supplies, and sex before assassinating people. I am played by Christopher Lee in The Man with the Golden Gun. Who would you be? James Bond Villain Personality Test

I also finally managed to rent a copy of Devil May Cry.

VICTORY!!!! V^____^V

Ahem.

Anyway, playing. Lots of fun. Much random killing.

Which means my day's been comprised of, yes, sex and violence. Woo-hoo!

Okay, also raking leaves. And watching an episode of CCS that looked like Miyuki-chan in Wonderland.

But mostly the sex and violence.

I'm watching a pv called Porno Star.
Repeatedly.
^_^V

Xenia's getting a blog. Which makes a grand total of 2 bloggers I know IRL. If you count myself. ^^;;

Wacked-out obsession with yaoi-type hentainess today. Beyond the usual, I mean. Playing Porno Star repeatedly, for one. I also went down to yaoiboys.com to check out the June section. No djs! *sob* Nice fanart, tho... Typed in random dotcom addys. Tried yaoi.com. Got sent to some American porn page. Gay porn, but... ick. American porn. Ick. Of course, I'm watching a pv filled with girls feeling themselves up, so I can't really talk, but... still. Switched over to Vanilla for a while. And Illuminati. And Dirty Little Mind.

My reading material during all this? MMM. Which has to be one of the cleanest fics I've read in a while. @_@ I make so much sense...

Sugar Daddy Quatre!

Actually, during DLM I switched over to the RRYaoi archive. Haven't been there in a while. Like the layout. Wish it still listed the pairings next to the fics, tho.

My lil sister is sitting next to me watching all this, BTW. ^^;; Hoo... My family's so... functional, isn't it? *sweatdrop* Actually, she did ask me to change the movie at one point. So it's good.

I changed back, but... *sweatdrop* It's okay, right? ^_^