Okay. I haven't updated CAGE. Just realized that. Not my fault. Have a guest page. Supposedly. Have seen it. Looks good. Haven't received the file yet. Will go up soon. Promise. Go read some Smallville slash. Now.

Distracting self from annoying Charles Dickens writing assignment by reading random Smallville smut and dear. Fucking. Gods. Why'd I stop reading this fandom again? Bad Kiti. Bad, bad Kiti.

Jenn. Should be. Bottled. And Wendi. And Te, of course, wonderful wonderful Te, but right now I'm focusing on the Jenn 'cause I just read Fetish and whooooooooo. Good fic. Very, very good fic, and coherent thought very far away, so, yeah, writing assignment going on hold for a while now, and hooooooo. I want to make another SV music video. Aside from that Clark/Lana/Whitney and the Lex-Lionel thing. CLex. Requests? Anybody? I'm thinking something to Garbage. Or The Start, there's a song by The Start I've been thinking about using. Wish these writers would start making requests, though, even though I've learned that taking requests is a BAD IDEA, but I should make an exception for SV writers, 'cause they're just so GOOOD, and they deserve... something. Yes. I should send feedback. That would be a good thing to do. Yes. Mmm. Remember what I was saying about the coherent thought and the not happening?

Damn. Okay, successfully managed to put off that writing assignment for an hour or so...

Smallville.

Yes. Dear gods, yes.

Buffy.

The entire season has now been redeemed.

And nothing more really needs to be said about that. But me being me, I'll say it anyway. Look out, spoilers below, although if you haven't seen the finale for either show by this time I shall have to whap you repeatedly about the head with a nice heavy stick with a nail in it.

Buffy? Giles is BACK. And more importantly, he LAUGHED about the season's oddities. As far as I'm concerned, this is Joss's way of saying, yeah, I know everything went screwy. Don't worry, Daddy's back, I'll make it all better. And I loved Willow, because I just love getting into the heads of fucked up characters, and this was Willow at her most fucked up. She's making the same mistake so many other people have made. She thinks power makes all the problems go away. It doesn't. It just brings different problems. Power does not matter in any way that counts, and this was completely driven home by the fact that it was Xander--the one and only completely powerless character on the show--who finally stopped her.

Next season? Spike with a soul. I am oh so very worried about this. I'm a fan of the Big Bad, personally. Now, I liked William in that one episode we got to see him, but I do NOT want to see Spike turn back into William. William was a wuss. Spike is not. I suppose he can maybe be a little remorseful about the killing, and I'm wincing as I write that, but if they attempt to turn my Spike into a wuss I will have to hurt people. He doesn't have to turn into William necessarily. Look at pre-Darla-Angel and Angel-with-soul; we're talking major changes, here. So this could be interesting. If Joss starts paying attention again, that is. More importantly, Willow had better have some SERIOUS consequences next season. If all is forgiven, I will go quite insane. Willow was not under any sort of mind control, she was not under any kind of spell, this was just her own sheer lust for power and revenge. And okay, yeah, addiction, but it's an addiction to POWER which is significantly different from an addiction to any sort of drug. See the power mini-rant above.

And Smallville. Dear gods, Smallville. Damn. I didn't think they could write like this. How could they DO that? And they expect me to just wait four MONTHS? C'mon! Even Farscape doesn't have THAT huge of a cliffhanger between seasons, and they're only between seasons for a month at a time! This is cruel! Our main character just ran into a tornado, people! Not high winds, not a storm, but the actual FUNNEL of a TORNADO. And okay, yeah, invulnerable and all, but that doesn't mean he's going to miraculously be able to BREATHE in there. Wait, does Superman need to breathe? I seem to remember random movie posters of him flying around in outer space... Damn, I wish I'd payed more attention to those movies. Hmm. Well, regardless, I am fairly sure that Clark Kent DOES still need to breathe, and I am most definitely sure that Lana Lang does. And we all know she's not dying, but DAMNIT! That's a cliffhanger nonetheless!

More importantly. Clark left Chloe at the dance to go save Lana. Admittedly, she was in desperate need of saving. But. *whaps Clark repeatedly about the head with a big heavy stick with a green glowing nail in it*

Whitney. Just when they got me to like him. I'm fully into Whitney/Lana now, tearing up in a few scenes here, and I'm not used to het shipping. Hmm. And he ASKED CLARK TO PROTECT HER. Arthur to Lancelot. Damn, I loved that scene.

Jonathan running into a tornado. You grew up in Kansas, pal. You know better than this. Let the reporter go. It's not like Lex isn't going to kill the guy anyway. (Speaking of which, the LuthorCorp website is fun lately. Reading the e-mails between Lex and Roger is amusing. Downloaded the clip of Porsche-into-Clark and watched it and paused it where Lex pauses it; yes, I am pathetically easily amused. Loved Gabe's e-mail--love the involvement of history in this show in general, actually, and who was it that pointed out the Lionel/HenryVIII, Lex/Elizabeth comparison? Genius.)

And Lex. Wow. With the blood over half the face (which is a weird kink with me anyway, but I'm loving the symbolism too) and the thunder and when Lionel swings open the doors and Lex tearing up the room and "You're not my enemy, you're my son!" as if Lex's behavior is a shock and "Cry havoc and let slip the dogs of war!" and holy crap Julius Ceaser, prophetic much? And the window shattering and will he save him or not? Personally, I'm hoping for yes, because otherwise, wow, slipping too far too quick, and besides which, it'd deprive hundreds of minions of their long awaited chance to deliver several much-needed very thorough ass-kickings.

But other people have gone over that scene more times than I can count, and far more eloquently than I could ever state. I have just one more thing to say about this episode:

Clark wore a tuxedo, stood beside Lex, and said "I do."

To clear up any confusion, I am not pissed at the person who made that CB vid. I'm just pissed off that we came up with the same idea. It's the circumstances, not the person, you get it?

...although I AM annoyed at said person for finishing the video with the words "I am so sick of this song."

Anyway. While we're on the subject of music videos... ever been to http://www.bonibaru.com/? I'd never been there till I got an e-mail from the webmistress--she liked my Slashville video. Feedback, yay! So I checked out her site. She had a nice detailed review of my video on her blog. Detailed review, yay! And then I checked out HER music videos. (And fic recs. And went into a happy place for a while. If you watch Buffy/Angel/Smallville/all of the above, seriously, check out this page.) And they were good. I don't see a lot of good non-amv fanvids out there, but hers are good. Particularly Hey Pretty and The Different--but then, good songs, so I'm biased. But, good. (Which made me feel even better about getting a nice detailed review from her. Have I mentioned that I'm a feedback-whore? 'Cause I am.)

On a side note, I've discovered that it's nearly impossible to eliminate all conversation scenes from non-amv fanvids (there has GOT to be a shorter name for these). In anime, the scene tends to cut to the person being spoken too, shows us their expression--in live action shows, the cameraman almost ALWAYS focuses on the person doing the talking. Annoying as all hell when trying to put a video together. I've settled for just eliminating most of the talking, and trying to make sure the mouth movements seem to flow with the music, lip synching as much as possible. Throwing in some subtitles might help, too.

Cancelled that Fatherly Love video for Lionel, or at least put in on hold. I'm working on another Lex POV vid now. Dark, but more in an almost masochistic way than an Evil!Lex way. Really not an attitude I see in him during the show, at least not much. I think I've seen it in a fic or two. It's working surprisingly well. Should be able to upload it soon.

That reminds me... I really ought to update that side bar.

Pissed Off!Kiti.

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Someone made a Cowboy Bebop video. To Nickelback's "How you remind me." Like I was working on, you know? And it's their first video. I figured, okay, well, if it's crap, and random action, I'll just go ahead and finish mine anyway... But they did it well. Not great, not outstanding, but well. And even worse? It's about the Spike/Julia/Vicious thing. Which is what mine is about. Fuck, fuck, fuck... And since there IS a limited number of scenes of these guys to work with, well... My scenes are in a different order, but it might as well be the same video. Fuck.

Not much point in finishing it now. Fuck. I really wanted to do a Bebop vid too, and that was my only one I had planned... fuck, fuck fuck.

Oooh. Nifty.

Snippets from poems I liked

About this page:
"Emotions taste like a single thing
for deleting those people who wanted
to why. is THIS there? are the
world to channel four. Somehow, the just
a demon, and miss
the song came on..."
"If I have no reaction one within..."
"for some sort of Gold"
"still wanted to the
things to why.
is the best plan right"
"May very well
you still get a name ... Kiti Katt"
"walking home Three Can
go to
play on her get rid of the
best
plan right words to fight "
"I always knew
the entire human race."
"but never find just confused and
suffering and run program
again...to go. to
simply fade take
everything with absolutely nowhere to tell"
"what going to end war, a tendency
not only will excercise I in
the internet, or go to
go."

About some of my fics (divided by series, guess which is which. ~_^):

"I
might have even
if I could never
saw what I have tried
were a trace of life, the things
only thing that
I was a
taste of me"
"and then I was me, programmed so close
to go to do "
"he muttered something vaguely
resembling
a whisper, a
hero, I was
we talked. Kissed. "
"Now. He was beyond that.
a Fire"
"Just
a reason why, should you just
tell yourself the shape of what
harm is a simple
dream?"
"Just another mindless robots slept. Inhuman bastard!
think I still almost believed you"

"sorry I... I like the arm wrapped around me"
"he
stood there for
the floor, shattering into
pieces. not
really sure he
caught sight of us."
"we can talk
down the meaning of
things"


"I deal of true
friends. "

"I do dream, of the distance, I
seen that
gentleness. in your head. "
"just as I fell
asleep in the Farplane?
if I sure but you
You started sharing your pain "
"So strong, She will
be able
to smile like
me."
"I sure people they should
be seen
by ruins."
"I think about.
it, too. All not really there"
"in a second I think everyone
else thought I was a river of
pyreflies lighting it too."

I am 27% evil. Take the test :: koolplace.com

Not evil AGAIN! SEE? TAKE THAT, CRAZY PEOPLE WHAT THINK I'M EVIL! YEAH! I'M GOING TO HEAVEN! ...or I would be, if I wasn't pagan and all that, but... you know... NOT EVIL! BWAHAHAHAHAHAH!

...wait, does this mean I have to stop with the evil laughter?

Whoa.

Staind-SV-Lionel.

Completely wasn't expecting that.

Been wanting to use that song for something, but then I was reading this interview, a part about Lionel, and the song came on, and... whoa. Hmm. Do I really want to take it that way? But I've already got the vid working itself out in my head--heavy use of Club Zero on the bass... Hmm. This could work.

On a side note... HA! I'm NOT evil! HA! -14%! And I wasn't in denial, either, I was actually honest on all the questions! Ha! Beat THAT!

"You are the perfect being. Any psychotic tendencies you may possess are neatly balanced by you desire to help others and your devotion to the lord above. Well you could be an excellent human being, but you're most likely in denial. Try the test again, and try to tell the truth this time. If you still get a score of 0 then you may very well be the savior of the entire human race."

Better start calling me Messiah, then... ^_^

Ever heard of a book called Yarrow? Freakiest thing ever. Cat is me. Well, I'm more of a bitch. And I don't think of myself as shy, and neither do my friends, although everyone else does. But her physical description and the things that happen to her. Cat is me.

Oh, yeah. More things to piss me off. Going to fail that AP Calculus exam tomorrow. Badly. Why am I in that class? I haven't understood a single thing we've done all year... Actually, I kind of get some of it when I get a chance to look on it on my own, on the internet, or using any resources other than the teacher and the notes he gives us. Hmm. Think that says something about his teaching methods? Not that I'm blaming the teacher for my failing, of course. Just a random thought.

Anyway. After the exam, I don't have to go to classes, 'cause it's exam day and I'm in an AP class so, yay, lucky me. Except not so much. First off, exam ends at 12. Bus arrives at 2. I do not currently have a parking pass, so I'm stuck taking the bus. That's a two hour wait. Joy. So what do I do in between? I could go to class out of boredom, except: 1. Shyeah, right, and 2. I don't have classes after noon. I have lunch, study, study, and Calculus. I could maybe go to study and confuse the heck out of my teachers and the staff down at the attendance office, and then get called down the the attendance office to explain something that's perfectly obvious, but I really don't feel like dealing with that crap. And for the last period, not only will there not be anyone else in the class, there won't be a teacher. I have absolutely nowhere to go. So, I could sit around outside, like I'm out on privs. Except I don't actually have privs (bad Kiti, getting privs suspended). But it's not like I don't skip lunch to go out on privs anyway. So that could work. Except that it's supposed to rain tomorrow. Aside from the minor discomfort of being in the rain/sitting on wet grass, when it rains, privs get cancelled. A lone person out on privs when there are no privs is a little suspicious. So. I could try walking home. Three miles, along the highway. With a backpack. Fun. The three miles I don't mind so much. The backpack and the highway... plus, there's the whole rain thing again. I like walking in the rain--by choice. When it's the only option, I might get a little annoyed. Final option, walk a few blocks down to the town library and read for a while. This is looking like the best plan right now, actually. Except that, me being me, I will probably lose track of time and miss the bus, and get stuck walking home after all. Damnit.

Yeah, so. Life's gonna suck tomorrow. Damnit, I want my car. And a parking pass. Public transportation sucks monkeys.

Argh. Mini-rant! This is stupid and minor, but it's irritating me, so I rant. VIDEO EDITING PROGRAMS SUCK MONKEYS.

First of, I started out helping XENIA fix the equipment, 'cause she's the one who wanted to work on a vid but I'm the mechanic.

Problem number one. The VCR sends signals to the computer; the DVD player doesn't. Solution: switch the VCR to channel four. Somehow, the DVD player has been switched to play on channel four. Go figure.

Problem number two. Computer is out of space. Solution: delete old, no longer needed video clips.

Problem number three. Can no longer access current project due to missing clips. Solution: strangle Xenia for deleting those 'no longer needed' video clips. Wait, no. That's just the mental image. My mistake. Solution: decide that the computer's just confused and restart. Restarting doesn't help. Solution: System restore. Don't freak out on me yet; just a small one, within the month ('cause poor Beast can't restore to anything before that anyway). That doesn't work either. Bang head into desk repeatedly. Non helpful. Try acessing other (FY, AS) projects. They don't work. Try creating new project and accessing. Works. Try accessing other (FFX) project. Works! Try accessing the three I'd tried before (FY, AS, Xenia's YYH). Doesn't work. But, does tell me which clip is missing. Solution: copy random clip and rename as the missing clip. Try to access project. Success!

Problem number four. Project plays fine, up until the missing clip. Everything after that is screwy. Solution: delete the missing clip from the project and record that scene again later.

Xenia has given up on working on her video today, so I take over. I want to work on that FFX one, anyway; all I'd done with that was get the opening scenes in, since I'm focusing on the AS vid.

Problem number five. Video freezes as soon as I add a clip. Solution: exit and run program again.

Repeat number five. Over and over and over again. Restart computer.

Problem number six. For whatever reason, any clips added from anything other than the ending sequence of FFX are about half the size of the screen. Solution: Swear. A lot. And restart. And so on and so forth. Finally realize that the source clip of the ending was downloaded, not recorded, and actually is twice the size of the other clips, just being resized. Maybe the other clips are automatically being resized too. Solution: produce current unfinished movie, which should make all clips the same size and remove need for resizing.

Problem number seven. Movie gets to 22% and then stops. Twice. Solution: Screw it, I'm gonna netsurf.

...I didn't sign in just now. Blogger still remembers me signing in from yesterday? It's not supposed to remember me... *is irritated/freaked*

Well, anyway. Ignoring the latest in the long list of minor oddities in my life...

ESCAFLOWNE.

*faints*

To all those people who have marked May 3rd as the day Spiderman comes out, let me just say this: Ha. Ha ha, ha.

Don't get me wrong. I plan on seeing Spiderman too. Eventually. Looks nice. Or at least it did, before I watched this, and had all perspective thrown entirely out the window.

The Escaflowne movie. Big screen. First row center. I was in Gaia. And dear gods. Wow. Spoiler-free, my reaction (one of them) to the ending was an overwhelming urge to glomp Folken-sama and not let go, ever. What really disturbed me is that most people who haven't seen the TV series wouldn't get that urge at all, because his original motivation in this (Van got the throne instead of me!) is a lot more selfish. In fact, I commented on Folken-sama on the way home, and the person driving reacted "Ugh!" If she hadn't been driving at the time, I would have been forced to leap across the seat and strangle her.

Other highlights: Nariya and Eriya. Brief appearance. But a beautiful one. But one that would cause almost no reaction without seeing the TV series first. Two reactions. 1: Their whole role in Escaflowne is narrowed down to this? 2: Wait... so, if Folken hadn't found them (and that whole thing in their past hadn't happened, of course), they could have lived a normal (and presumably fairly happy) life? The other big thing in comparison to TV series: DILANDAU. Still insane, but his reaction to his Dragonslayers (they're not called that, actually, but I don't think they were given a name)... Dear gods. The weak die, the strong survive?! Dilandau?!

On a non-TV-related note... THE VISUALS. WOW. I already knew the soundtrack was amazing. But the promotional pictures I'd seen hadn't impressed me. There were just so many visual treats, though! When Hitomi first arrives, she in her blue-and-white uniform is the only bright spot in a dark scene--a goddess bringing brightness to a dark world. Dilandau's armor reminded me of nothing so much as a demon, and dragging it up from the water = rising from the depths. Escaflowne, on the other hand, is described as a god that descends--complete opposites, but both are to destroy the world. And Escaflowne's transformation made me immediately think of an Angel of Death.

Folken-sama mentioned 'unmei' towards the end, and I got chills. But the theme behind Escaflowne the movie is entirely different from Escaflowne the TV series. Both are about life and death, of course. And battle. But destiny was mentioned only that one time. In Escaflowne the TV series, controlling destiny, creating an artificial fate in order to end war, a war to end all wars--these were major themes, from Zaibach's point of view. But Folken's (and originally Hitomi's) goal is to simply fade away--and take everything with him. Destroy the world to end suffering. It reminded me a great deal of FFX, actually (Yunalesca! Seymore!). His motivations were drastically different. He didn't even have his claw--the physical symbol of all his suffering.

I still wanted to glomp him, though. Glomp sounds suddenly too fangirl for me. This was a very serious movie. But I wanted to hold him and be there for him. At the end especially.

One thing that's bothering me. Sora. WHO IS THIS PERSON?! I love her, don't get me wrong. But why is she there? Where did she come from? What is she? I was thinking Atlantis for some reason, actually... but with absolutely no basis aside from pure intuition. Sora, who are you?

I wanted to glomp everyone at some point. Everyone. Well, Allan, I wanted to fight at his back. But you get the idea.

BTW. Sora, Time of Gold Flowing, and Final Vision. The three best songs in existence.

And the movie was subbed, not dubbed. YESSSSS! ...although the dub actually looks pretty good. But, YESSSSS!

Passed a more mundane theater on the way home. With the movies they were playing listed out front, you know? As we're discussing fate and destiny and suffering and life and loyalty.

...Spiderman.

Ha. Ha ha. Ha.

The hardest thing for me is to start something. Now this is odd, because I used to think starting things was easy. I always knew the beginning of a story I wanted to write, but never the end. But it's the beginning that's the hard part, now. I can never find just the right words to start with.

It's not just writing I'm talking about, it's everything. There's some sort of scientific principle that goes along with this, isn't there? An object at rest will remain at rest. Take excercise. I love excercising. It's fun, it's healthy. Joy. Most people, from my experience, will excercise for about half an hour and then quit--which is very healthy, but I'm weird. When I excercise, once I start, I can go on more or less indefinitely. I'll start out with stretches and crunches and pushups, then weight lifting, then go running if it's nice out, or go hiking in the woods, or if it's nasty outside do some yoga, or... it goes on for a while. But I don't excercise nearly as much as I'd like, because I don't start it. I don't know why. Sitting down on the floor and doing some crunches isn't dificult. It's something I like. And a lot of the time I'll think to myself, it's been a while since I've excercised, I'm bored, why don't I do some stretches? But I don't. No clue as to why. I just have a tendency not to start things, no matter how much I enjoy them while I'm doing them. It's very strange.